How celebrating New Years has helped me cope with depression
I was lying in bed spacing out, as one does, contemplating just what it is about new years that I love so much and it suddenly hit me over the head with a big ol' comical DUH. I realized that planning out the new year has become the biggest "tool" in my arsenal that has helped me cope with depression. New Years planning for me is akin to building a raft to navigate the choppy waters or drawing up a map to happiness to get my through the blinding haze.
With depression life feels void of meaning, and I realized the only way for me to stay sane and optimistic was to create meaning myself. To jump out of the stream of should's and supposed to's and take a good hard look at what I would love life to look like.
These goals may not be super glamorous, that first year mine were as "simple" as creating a regular journaling practice, finding a job that I could hold on to, and finally getting my license. (I say simple because for many these are easy things to do but for me they were huge hulking mountains to be climbed.)
And after years of fearing these goals I had finally made them happen. And it was all because I took the time to sit down and decide what I truly wanted for myself despite the sadness and fear and broke them down into smaller tasks that made it more palatable for my anxiety to stomach.
And each year my goals get bigger and braver, and I've taken leaps I wouldn't of been able to dream of 6 years ago. It's all been a long work in progress, a build up of what I believe I am capable of, and there is so much further to go. But it thrills me to look back and see how far I've come.
If you struggle with an overwhelming feeling of meaningless, I dare you to set some goals this year. Leonie Dawson's Amazing Life workbook has been pivotal to my plotting for the past 6 years, and is a great place to start if you don't know how to go about this whole New Years thang.
Become the author of your own story.
Let's get to writing,